This blog is written under the influence of alcohol, under the influence of lack of sleep, under the influence of stress, under the influence of don't give a fuck anymore......
I am tired.
I am tired of getting no respect.
I am tired of people taking advantage of me.
I am tired of looking at the scale and demanding better from myself.
I am tired of having people in my life that deserve little respect because they give me none.
I am tired of getting home from work and not being able to sleep.
I am tired of not spending quality time with my husband.
I am tired of thinking people are my friends and then finding out they are not real friends.
I am tired of doing my best and feeling like I should have done better instead of just being proud of myself.
I am tired of being less than enough.
Today I realized that even people who look you in the eye and call themself friend aren't always that. Sometimes thoughs who we trust are the most manipulative of all. You have to see true colors before you color outside the lines. I want to color outside the lines.
And today at this moment....... I am ready to color outside the lines!
I am no longer going to save face as long as I give my best than that is all I have to do.
I don't need to be someones friend or be manipulated, I just need to give 100% all the time.
I am a good person and I give it my all at my job. No matter where my life takes me, that is the best I can do and what I do will always be my best!!!!!!!!
#1 you are in my circle of iluminayti's...#2 I think yu are the best as well. You my dear girl are one of the only people I know that has colored outside the lines, kept her dignity, and above all has remained true to herself... Let me share this...... If I die with only one good friend I have died the happiest person in the world! Remember that, because I believe This advice has given me more meaning to the definition of a friend!
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