24 hr sleep

Twelve hours of sleep two days in a row equals sleeping a whole day away.  I don't recommend the way I was able to do it but I sure needed the sleep after all the sleepless nights.  First night I went back to work I was so exhausted, I wasn't on the floor more than a half an hour before I was in the nurses station  for for almost passing out.  After a bunch of questions, pokes and minor other things all she could come up with was high blood pressure and she also said no sleep can make my body out of whack.  I made it through the night, sometimes in a complete fog.  Numbers didn't add up right many times, questions asked of me sounded fuzzy the first time, the whole night I felt out of place.  I came home and sat with a cup of tea and decided to double my dose of ambien so I could get some sleep.  Let's just say I got up in enough time to cook for my daughters and shower and get dressed and even still without eating a bite of food I was barely on time, some may say I was late.  I felt sort of refreshed through the night although groggy and wanted to go back to sleep.  I got through the night a little better than the last, maybe knowing it was my Friday helped.  After getting home I was not quite tired enough to go to sleep but I wanted to.  I wanted to feel my head against the pillow, I wanted to drift off to the never place.  I figured if over dosing on prescription pills worked than maybe taking extra off the shelf sleeping pills might work.  So again with my lovely cup of peppermint tea I relaxed and after a bit I took three, the bottle says to take one but I had taken two before and that hadn't worked so why not try three.  And awake I was nearly twelve hours later.  Oh the sleep felt good.  Yes it is a little late and I have once tried to go to bed but I understand I haven't been up long so I will be taking my last ambien in just a few minutes.  I have a doctors appointment in the morning to discuss the anxieties I am suffering about sleep and how high dosages are just not affecting me like they should.  

I do feel better today than I have the last few weeks so maybe something is starting to go right in my body.  Let's cross our fingers and hope things are moving in the right direction.

I am hoping that if my sleep disorder, and I do consider it a disorder, gets fixed my I'll start managing my weight better.  Seems like the stress and worry with limited sleep can cause me to eat and not only eat but eat the wrong things.  And there has definitely been limited gym energy.  Just looking to have myself back is all.